I heard these words the other day, and my first instinct was the same as it usually is. I was prepared to be upset and get defensive. Thankfully, I didn’t react that way, but I’ve been thinking about it ever since. Initially I felt like that was a weird thing to say to me, someone who has been sharing their writing on the internet for almost 2 decades on various platforms. But it made me realize something important, something I should probably come to terms with. I’m just not as important as I think I am, nor am I as important as I want to be.
I really love to write. Well, I used to. Lately I feel like I’m not good at it anymore. Maybe I never was. Maybe I’m fucking awesome at it, but I think I’m not because no one sings my praises. Or…..maybe I’m just scared. Failure scares me. Critique scares me. Being unappreciated or overlooked scares me. Everything scares me. Until it doesn’t. And that’s why I’m here today. I’ve reached my breaking point. I have nothing left to lose. I can’t possibly feel worse than I do right now. What a perfect time to do some shit I want to do and not care how it turns out!
So let’s clear some things up real quick. I will still write about video games in the way that only I can. That’s why this blog was started, and I will not change that focus for selfish reasons. I’ve always wanted to be helpful in the gaming space, and that will never change. So I’ll still give recommendations, opinions, critiques, all that good stuff. However, whenever I feel like I want to pop up and get some shit off my chest, I will. And if you don’t like it, oh well. I’ll survive. Or I won’t. You don’t care either way.
So before I go, I just want to tell you to please check out “It Takes Two” this weekend. I’ve been singing it’s praises for a while now and I really think it’s going to be a lovely game. I know it might not tick the checkboxes a lot of gamers care about, but I implore you to give it a chance. It’s only 40 bucks, and a friend can play with you without even buying the game. I might review it after I finish it, but I make no promises. Anyway, I’m gonna go now. But…..
As for that reference, IFKYK. See you soon. Get comfortable and Press Start.